Why Oh Why?

When we talk about transformation we  talk about our why…why we really want to make a change to improve our lives? It’s the thing that drives us to get to where we want to be. What’s driving you to your goal? Recently I’ve been following closely the “whys” put up on FB and through people’s blogs.

I must admit I started to doubt myself…was my “why” enough? Was I authentic? Should it change? Evolve?

I looked at my fellow MP trainers and many of them were putting themselves up on stage with muscles on their brussels and winning awards.

Josh Dickenson-Body Builder

I looked at another who basically rips out his heart, puts it in his pocket and completes the most gut wrenching races!

Dave Oulton-Obstacle Race Extraordinaire

Some that lift the weight of the world!

Glenda Presutti-Powerlifter

And some who can look like this and run ultra-marathons!

Michelle Adams-Body Builder turned Ultra-Marathon Runner

I saw others who were setting dates to do daring photo shoots and my own husband who had set himself the challenge of completing a 52km paddle in Molokai next year.

Jamie Stubbs-Marathon Paddler

I continued to doubt myself…did I need to conquer my own Mt Everest? And if so, what would it be?

It wasn’t until I looked at a photo I took on the weekend that I had my moment of confirmation. And for those of you who have lived in a broken body that stops you doing anything well – you will get my why…

It wasn’t that many years ago through over-training, inadequate nutritional knowledge and stress I was too tired and exhausted to read my kids a night time story and too injured to enjoy some of the simple things in life …

My body was worn out, I was worn out…twice weekly trips to the chiropractor were the done thing. There was so many things I just stopped doing. The protruding C5, degenerative lower back, locked jaw twice (tell me that doesn’t freak you out), throw in about 5 months of bronchitis and your talking about a body that was shouting out “please help!”

My Why…my beautiful kids!

So when I saw this photo I realised how far I’ve come in improving  my health and well being. Because of this EVERYTHING is better. I had to smile, “my why” is enough for me right now! Being happy, healthy, thoughtful, playful and patient was elusive when the body was broken.

Will my why change, of course – that’s called living!